Monday, April 28, 2008

周杰倫 - 我不配

i loved this song de moment i heard it on jay's album. and it is de highest played chinese song on my itunes now. it was juz another song i liked frm jay. another of those i can play on n on n nvr get sick of.

but tdy while k-ing this song, i felt a lump in my throat. i connected wid de song on a lvl i nvr thought i wld. it was as if i wrote de song.

there is de urge to just break down n cry. but it is still after all, an urge. no breaking down, no crying.

life goes on.

Monday, April 14, 2008

it is completed finally. handed in. no more editing allowed.

my hands r shaking as i type this wif my entire body shivering. it has been such an experience the past few days that i can barely find the words to say what i want to say. no tears, no depression, no joy, no relief, no anger, no regret, no sadness. i feel void of emotions suddenly. so unlike me. wat happened? i dun know hw i feel really. and this is rare.

just want to thank some people who've been of help these past few weeks. jess has been an incredibly indispensble gem - thanks for sticking by to help out with the referencing and all the last min administrative stuff. my thesis doesn't feel like my own - it's like a shared proj. thanks for proofreading, for commenting earlier drafts etc. i cant thank u enough.

and there is ling. thanks, today, when i asked for help - u immediately agreed with no hesitation. despite ur lack of technical know-how. despite hvg ur own thesis to deal with. thanks for fighting this last academic battle with me, fren.

steph. for de company on msn de past 2 nights. for helping out de content pg at de computer lab. basically i wasn't even worried at all, nor panicking, bcos all of u were panicking for me! yup, and de thanks is extended to leon. shyuan. adrainC. all who helped. i realli can't thank u all enough.

i was prevented a subgrade deduction bcos of these wonderful people. thanks once again.

and tomorrow. i will decide if this thesis is the last one i am ever going to write within these couple of years. before that, back to my bed - haven't been sleeping well for a long time. one more cultural assignment n i will be free (for the time being)!