jan is almost over. i finally plucked up enough courage to list down wat i hv to do this sem.

1. weekly responses to all de readings for global cities. 500 words.
2. 20pg lit review (or whatever paper u wana do) for global cities. dat is abt 5000-6000 words.
3. presentation for global cities. i duno on what yet.
4. 30% exam for global cities. damn. exam again! and it's a day after my bdae. fish!!!
5. presentation for grs.
6. paper for grs. 2000 words.
7. 3 fortnightly tuts for changing landscape.
8. half of de midterm tests for changing landscape to mark
9. presentation for mobility in asia pacific conference
10. 8000 word for de same bloody conference. why did i do it!?
11. presentation for aag. where i will be spending one wk in lasvegas - de city of sin.
12. 7000 word paper i am co-authoring with brenda. shitz. i haven done anything yet.

all in all, almost 27,000 words in a single sem.
and those r just de more official stuff. i hv other things pending - applications for irb clearance, for sponsorships etc. one of which has been freaking me out. and dr noor's surveys which she has paid me for. i cannot not do them. damn again.

another angsty post again. january is an angsty mth.

well. i am learning. to smile. every morning. de moment i wake up. it kinda worked for two days. de rationale is dat no matter hw bad ur day gets, at least at de end of it, u can proudly claim dat u smiled at least once. ok. it sounds stupid. try it. i think it works. at de moment.

anger knows no boundaries.
i scare even myself at times when i get angry & lose my temper.
for de past two days, i hv been so angry dat my tears evaporate de second they well in my eyes.

心中有佛

i need to restrain myself.
i can't control de words dat fly out of my mouth, especially the vulgarities.
and i hv a degree in spewing vulgarities.

阿弥陀佛

deep breath deep breath deep breath.

今天我想起了你，总共想了十二遍。
也不知道爱与不爱的差距，到底该怎么去衡量。
痛说不上痛，遗憾说不上遗憾，或许无法归类的感觉才是最可悲的。