此刻的我，可以说很快乐。
既然这股快乐很有可能就如流星般地划过我身边，但我还是很享受。
因为如此的快乐可不是每天所能遇见的。
而这种快乐也很有可能明早起来就蒸发掉了。
甜甜的，犹如蜜糖, 却一点也不腻。

谢谢当事人让我那么开心。
简直就是心花怒放！

i graduated.

alota words. alota thoughts. but i just can't pen them down. they keep buzzing ard, always outta reach.

thanks to geog hons class 07/08. u've all been a wonderful bunch. and those frens who bothered to call / sms / come down. appreciate it frm e bottom of my heart.

for those who've been wondering: i've finally been granted de bond suspension to continue my masters! after so many mths of waiting!

i nid to learn how to manage my anger better.

why am i losing control of my feelings time and again.?

i am feeling everything negative. nothing positive seems to be happening. i realli feel like i shld check myself into a monastry. and start studying de teachings of Buddha. and practise them. i am so ashamed to call myself a Buddhist.

i must rmbr all worldly desires r transient. and it includes frenship.

当你伤心到彻底，你会怎么办呢？

最要好的死党所做的事情真是让你太过伤心了...
伤心到某种想让你完全地把这段友谊放弃掉的地步，真是好辛酸啊...

有些事情真得不能说，真的。

而最可悲的是，你想找一个真正能倾诉的对象，却发现自己的朋友其实少得可怜。

周杰倫 - 我不配

i loved this song de moment i heard it on jay's album. and it is de highest played chinese song on my itunes now. it was juz another song i liked frm jay. another of those i can play on n on n nvr get sick of.

but tdy while k-ing this song, i felt a lump in my throat. i connected wid de song on a lvl i nvr thought i wld. it was as if i wrote de song.

there is de urge to just break down n cry. but it is still after all, an urge. no breaking down, no crying.

life goes on.

it is completed finally. handed in. no more editing allowed.

my hands r shaking as i type this wif my entire body shivering. it has been such an experience the past few days that i can barely find the words to say what i want to say. no tears, no depression, no joy, no relief, no anger, no regret, no sadness. i feel void of emotions suddenly. so unlike me. wat happened? i dun know hw i feel really. and this is rare.

just want to thank some people who've been of help these past few weeks. jess has been an incredibly indispensble gem - thanks for sticking by to help out with the referencing and all the last min administrative stuff. my thesis doesn't feel like my own - it's like a shared proj. thanks for proofreading, for commenting earlier drafts etc. i cant thank u enough.

and there is ling. thanks, today, when i asked for help - u immediately agreed with no hesitation. despite ur lack of technical know-how. despite hvg ur own thesis to deal with. thanks for fighting this last academic battle with me, fren.

steph. for de company on msn de past 2 nights. for helping out de content pg at de computer lab. basically i wasn't even worried at all, nor panicking, bcos all of u were panicking for me! yup, and de thanks is extended to leon. shyuan. adrainC. all who helped. i realli can't thank u all enough.

i was prevented a subgrade deduction bcos of these wonderful people. thanks once again.

and tomorrow. i will decide if this thesis is the last one i am ever going to write within these couple of years. before that, back to my bed - haven't been sleeping well for a long time. one more cultural assignment n i will be free (for the time being)!