I AM SO DAMN FREAKING HAPPY BECAUSE I FINISHED MY MARKING AND THAT MEANS YEAR ONE SEMESTER TWO OF MY MASTERS' DEGREE IS OFFICIALLY OVER!
AFTER NINE 500-WORD, ONE 2000-WORD, ONE 6000-WORD, ONE 9000-WORD AND ONE 10,000-WORD PAPERS + TWO CONFERENCE AND ONE SEMINAR PRESENTATIONS + TWENTY FOUR HOURS OF TUTORIAL TEACHING, 220 MID-SEM TESTS AND 87 EXAM SCRIPTS OF MARKING, THIS HORRIBLE SEMESTER IS FINALLY OVER!!!

*DANCE*
*TAKE OFF CLOTHES*
*JUMP INTO THE DEEP BLUE SEA*

taiwan here i come!!!

i dun like the way i am feeling now & i know i shldn't be feeling this way but i can't help the way i am feeling.

words alone cannot express hw i feel. sigh!

this has been a bad mth.
twisted my ankle. rammed my index finger. jet-lagged. strained my muscles so much i can't even walk properly now. rammed my index toe. and now a stitched head.

血光之灾

will it get worse or will it all end here? will i even live past my 26th birthday?

negative energy at its max. dispel it, dispel it. it was already accumulating since sat when i realized there were no plans for my birthday again. i am so cheap. argh!

dispel the negative energy!!! stop sulking!!!

fwah! juz one presentation and one 20pg paper and i will be done for the sem!
fwed! jiayou!

(ok i forgot abt de exams BUT they're not really of any consequence ba)
(oh sheesh, and de marking! yucks!)

i think i tend to conflate things tgtr. afterall, i m a staunch believer of my own interdependency theory - that no one object / process can exist in isolation & independence. but my forte, i think, has always been zooming in on a particular issue and untangling it frm the web of mess it is stuck in, micro-analyzing & micro-managing.

i relish the blissful delightfulness, the rapturous ecstacy & sublime romanticism of being in love. yet i cringe, thinking of the social horrors that would probably envelope when the reality of that love sets in.

and my heart aches.

back from vegas. good trip - got feedback on my paper which excited me for a lil', roamed parts of de sin city (tho could hv done more), visited de grand canyon etc.

BUT

kinda depressed nw - yes it is the stoopid jetlag. i'm sleeping at irregular hrs, which affects my classes (i was spacing out during tracey's class on tue & nearly fell asleep while teaching on wed); i get easily worn out - couldn't even get past one pg of reading (which is bad considering i hv a class later in de afternoon & i hv not finished a single reading outta de 4 designated ones, let alone write my 500word response); i speak incoherently & i hv groggy headaches. ARGH. worst of all, i suspect a fever is brewing - vegas was really too heaty liao. oh i hv mild rashes too. goodness!

BUT again, on de bright side i hv completed:
1) 10,000 word paper for "mobility in asia pacific" conference
2) presentation for the above conference
3) presentation for the aag (similar to the previous one, but much more refining - & am glad dat i got useful tips frm JJ & lina!)
4) ALL changing landscapes tutorials
5) IRB clearance for my research

nw only a lil' more to chiong:
1) 7000 word paper with brenda. will hv to finish by sunday & send to her by hook or by crook.
2) ONE more weekly response for global cities.
3) 20pg lit review for global cities.
4) presentation for global cities. not too difficult, i think.
5) presentation for grs. basically almost similar to global cities, i wld say.
6) 2000 word paper for grs. not gonna spend too much time on it though. 3 days, max.
7) half de midterm tests for changing landscape to mark. i am left with about half of dat half.

dats it for updates! woohoo!

i saw some of the photos of my ex-classmates in NIE.

and i wonder if i'd hv been happier had i not chosen this route.
i'd definitely be happier with the NIE lot. b'cos sha's there. jelly's there. and aida. michelle. choonhon. and even faisal. ellis. sarah. shyuan. ain. rita. some of whom i wasn't very close with, but i suspect i'd be able to mingle ard n bond in time to come.

oh well.

at least in de midst of all these negativity, some happier things hv occurred. finally, i am on talking terms with my buddy again. in fact we're going hiking @ bukit timah this coming sat. with mr chong as well. feels like de good old days again. and i hope it is not a transient feeling.